I have dreams about what happened, and when i wake up, I see everything as it really is. Only, its exactly the same as my dream. And i feel overpowered by my own mind, controlling how much or how little I feel.
I want to believe that if we were able to love someone so completely, we would always have a place for them in our lives.
I want to be able to look at him, love him, without having to wonder whether he loves me or not. I dont think I should have to give up needing to be loved. No one should have to wonder. I need reassurance every now and then.
I am sick of having to question all the time.
Do you want me.
Do. You. Want. me…like ive always wanted you.
Last year something happened to me that caused me to look at my life in an entirely new way.
I made a very unlikely friend. Meaning, if you saw the two of us together you wouldn’t think twice by making the assumption we didn’t know each other. But we do.
He and I starting conversing whenever we had the time, which was, on most occasions, late at night. When everything else was quiet
We proceeded to learn from one another. We proceeded to grow.
And in that time we discovered that being with someone meant more than conversing.
It meant knowing that person well enough to be able to not talk at all.
To know that the man or woman sitting next to you wants to be in that moment with you.
Its a funny thing…..love i mean.